Modern people in search of themselves

A man enjoying all that modern life offers, states that there is something missing. He embarks on a journey to find that thing. What he searches, it appears to me, is himself.

He is analogous to an eye that searches itself. It never sees itself, except by way of reflection. In any case, he sees signs that suggest himself. This is the second stage. I once upon took a bus in Kenya and then I noted a woman who it appeared to me was speaking to someone, that someone, I suspected was me, the one that searched for a long time. In playful manner I asked the woman whom was she speaking to! She said she said she was speaking to her friend, but the friend said he had no clue as to what she was talking about. It appeared to me someone was asking her out and she was saying no, thanks. The person whom she was talking to, in retrospect, was the self that I wished to realize. This self appears to know what needs to be done at any point in time.

There is also another self that opposes this self. For a long time, I have yielded to this one as opposed to the one that was smarter and much more useful to the goals that I cherished.

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