Fourth stage of the way

Some times, I find myself doing what I chose to do with single minded focus. I find no distractions appealing. I enjoy doing what I know is best for me. I clean and organize my room, for instance, with delight. This is the self that I have been after, I say to myself.

The feel is not that much of different from a person who chewed khat or things of that nature. I also noticed the emergency of similar state when I come up with inspiring ideas that are able to solve some of the challenges that I face.

Other times, I notice not doing what I think I ought to do and I do what I know I ought to not do it. At this stage, I have lost it. I have to once again meditate to get it and so on.

I fluctuate between having it and losing it.