As one meditates and meditates, one may eventually manage to empty himself from all pressures and thus become empty.
The pressures I am referring to here are like those, for instance, that appear simultaneously somewhere at the head, usually right side or back side of the head and below the lower abdomen, lust. Due to the desire, one's judgments gets clouded because he wants something, lack of objectivity, and because of the pressure on the head one'e perception suffers similar fate.
The state attained when pressures are dissolved, the author calls it pure existence or original self.
In my own experience, there emerges, after dissolution of pressures, a sort of ordinary self, a self that I have had during my childhood years. It re-emerges. It is as if other selves have overshadowed it, and it has now acquired capacity to shine again.
There is also some some sort of profound satisfaction with life as it is.
Even though it is difficult to say what it is, nevertheless there is some sort of familiarity with it so that it is not alien .
Due to its familiarity, some think it ought to be the universal self or original self.
The individual realizing It, presently, looks somewhat self-contained and beautiful.
The self realized from mythological or religious point of view appears to be that of Adam before the fall. One reason inclining me to think along this line is the absence of awareness or knowledge when one is realizing it and blissful nature of absolute fana or samadhi.
Adam's fall from the bliss or Jannah was caused by his consumption of the forbidden fruit. The fruit as we learn from other traditions was that of knowledge of good and evil. In the depth of fana or samadhi, their is no knowledge or awareness of anything, including good and evil.
Awareness, it would appear, is synonymous with fall from bliss.
It also appears to be marked by opposition or duality, so that dialectics appear to define it, thesis, anti-thesis and synthesis, or good and evil and then beyond good and evil.
Beyond duality, it would appear, represents return to the original state and hence the possibility of profound repose.
What the old story have been trying to capture may turn out somewhat analogous to what the meditator realizes on his mat.
At this point we are able to answer a koan: "Thinking neither of good nor of evil at this very moment what is my Original Nature.
The answer is absolute fana or samadhi. In the depth of samadhi or fana, no thought arises, one neither thinks of good nor of evil, and one'e original nature is what he is at this very moment of fana or samadhi.
I can recall stillness and some vague sense of existence as I reflect on what appears to be fana or samadhi.
If, therefore, my own experience suggests my original nature is stillness, no movement, then my original self appears to be stillness that lies beyond good and evil.
If so, I shall remain still in the context of context of good and evil, never allowing them to move me and thus deprive me from my original attribute, stillness. If so, this universe will turn out to be great trail or inquisition, Mihnah.
Why would stillness burst forth into the universe of duality away from its repose? The immediate answer is to be aware of itself, not awareness per se. This is the reason why Adam ate the apple, to acquire knowledge. One of the crucial steps of knowledge is naming. Adam was endowed with this capacity, the capacity to name.
But the capacity comes with a cost: due to the oppositional nature of the dualistic universe, that of good and evil, bloodshed is inevitable.
The angels in the Quran note this historical inevitability and ask God why he would create such reality. The answer given is that Adam has the capacity to name.
Adam yearns for his home, bliss but he cannot have it without relinquishing his capacity to name. He is left with no option but to establish bliss on this oppositional universe, so long as he remembers his origin and remains still in the face good and evil, he shall establish bliss or paradise on the dualistic universe.
The same way koans are resolved is how, it appears to me, live's most vexing problem are resolved.
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